I'd had a suicide note written on this website in the past, because I've wanted to kill myself, who wouldn't experiencing the shit I was. Just going back to nothing would be cool, but it seems the shit has stopped. The shit which started when I became homeless in late-October, 2021. But you wouldn't believe the shit that I was going through and fucking who knows why, because I've never hurt anybody in my life. Fuck I am even most often careful to not speak badly of others. But whoever or what shit haunted me out of my Melbourne apartment, sometime in late-October, 2021 - which is as stupid as fuck, I know this much, because of a sign I saw out near-by to some shops in fuck knows where somewhere in the vicinty of Sydney, read the year 1950 something, which I've known prior to being dragged into this shit on that useless day on the 23rd of January, 2013, that you can only travel forwards in time. A friend I know who also holds much intelligence told me long ago that "You don't know what you've been dragged into." Etc. It is a wonder that I am still sane... From almost all of everybody speaking backwards, like- speaking in a manner which I find out to invert to make it truthful... To climbing up mountains which didn't exist. To people speaking Spanish but only upon sighting me, and whom were speaking English prior to that. And why Spanish? Who the fuck is Spanish!? I only make this remark because of how much of it there was. To lots of strange colours I had noticed around, red, blue, and yellow. Whatever the fuck any of it means. I do not know and still being sane, of course, I do not care. I was close to travelling the interstellar medium in 2012. I developed a mechanism to translate gravitational energy into electrical. I wonder what I'd have achieve by now if I had not lost ten years of my life. I wish I'd never left Melbourne. Something was written there through me during November of 2017... I do not know what, I am only able to recall two details of about it. These are that the 'i's were always lower case to not show superiority over anybody else, which is the reason that I recall doing this, personally. And also, one line in it read, "this is a collaboration." Some other things which were said to me were after I'd lived through the mistakes of the past. Apparently it is an 'old' God which is there, and of course it is one. Or none. That's all. Also... I thought that it was would be important to mention that I left a opy of my Book, 'The NOTES' with some folks in Sydney... (https://yewtu.be/watch?v=Ve-mANenpC4) When they tortured and scared you for twenty odd years, you can't really function. On this night, 30th 30th September, 2023. Things became normal. I think that perhaps Australia is just weird? If only because people cannot be as stupid as to do the things which they are. [ .. ]images/index/IMG_20230930_194635.jpg Taken in Portland. [ .. ]pdfs/Sciences/OTHER_THINGS_TO_WRITE.pdf Things which I will soon return to working on, again. I am uncertain who the five people are whose names I was given, but there are another two involved, also. Maybe. If so one here (Australia) or the UK, and also one in the US... Maybe. Maybe not about the US one... I've seen two flashes of light in the sky on in VIC and one in ACT. But how the fuck should I really know given what I've experienced... And then there is me, with the Universe. Heh... When I was in Cairns beginning on the 17th of April, 2017; I remember mentioning the track by some musical artist titled "World of Confusion". LOL. I need peace and quiet, do away with the confusion, and of course good meth. Again. Also I am not sure that my ex was herself... To assist in understanding the contents of the files contained or linked to within the or found in the directories or pages, respectively. In a way I am not sure that I should've ever left Melbourne, as the most absurd shit was told to me some time near to the time when I left. That "my thoughts influence reality." LOL.