it is I was either alive and well throughout certain things which I have had been through, or dead and "dreaming" or fuck knows, exactly... I only know being alive. I mean what else? So I have heard some things, which seem weird but I unfortunately know them to be true, as fucked as it is... but in the future, things will be normal! as the fucking universe and nature had been conceived! what is at present occurring is a total fucking weirdness, is all. I know this and that... given from being me, and having been in certain situations, scenarios, and the most peculiar of circumstances, involving persons very much DIRECTLY fucking involved in whatever the fuck is going on, in actuality, which is ... IMHO, not natural, IT CANNOT BE! and I can tell you why... first things first; "gods" are nonexistent... they were developed to allow evil to exist. I know because I've met all (perhaps? I mean how am I to know... I mean I know what I do... from having personal fucking interactions with those involved... I've ... unfortunately? heh, also... met them all. they exist as a group of six to eight persons. yes. they are persons... and should NOT have the fucking ... ONE, actually I should make this clear, they are a group - fuck... I would very much go to the feeling well-justified in calling this group, an oligarchy... heh. okay. I do NOT know of how far this ... scheme ... spans. BUT IT ENDS NOW. fucking... I AM OMITTING ALL OF THE NAMES OF ALL THESE PERSONS, AS FUCK- IT IS JUST THE WAY THAT I FUCKING AM! ) Okay, evil... from a natural fucking perspective which is all that fucking is!!! and all that ever will fucking be... well ... AS I HAD STATED ON MY TWITTER, DOES NOT FUCKING EXIST! I should make very clear that I know all of what I do because of persons that I have been met, as I was pulled into something which was COMPLETELY beyond my knowing of ... just ... WTF!? [it was.] and anyway... no specifics but I know the EXACT dates upon certain eventful, or ... well, yes. eventful is the most accurate term for this describing of just exactly what was set into motion ... on the day that this all began, which was in 2013. I will say... as I (being told this and that, here and there... hints, as they've turned out to being...) was told back before some shit took place - of which I have got no fucking idea what it is that I was doing, but it was in November, 2017... As I was, at that time, under the control of the primary single person, who happened to be my fucking ex... one of them? haha. my life has not been fucking easy, but that is beside the point of my composition of this article... ANYWAY; CONTINUUING ON FROM WHAT I began to get onto explaining, was that it was provided to me in some manner ... as my life has been, weird, to say the least, okay; it was implied that this, what was taking place, happening, what I would acheieve was a FIRST ever, for the universe... Which is ... It just occurred to me that, how the fuck could it be a first if my understanding of the nature of all of reality, and the ways of the conscious. The Life... Well. it DOES, to me fucking entirely contradict NATURE, and I will explain to you here, why this is exactly, it is due to what I've been capable of drawing from inference alone, as I am equip with a brain which has undertaken, heavily, to say the least, involvment in academia of all ways imaginable... I can say, that I have devoted my life to the pursuit of knowledge... Spending a lengthy enough portion of my time having being been here on Earth, existing, and experiencing this total pleasure of the voyage of consciousness being a Living, sentient being... It is so fucking awesome! Haha. And I should mention the - what I totally have held as being a very fucking close and totally LOVED, passion, research area, and a otherwise separate to the joy provided by the researching of it, the sole capability to be granted this chance, as rare as it fucking really is, in consideration of the chances of being born and provided a Life, as a totally autonomous patron of the Universe... :-D