It has occurred to me now, coming as far as I have fucking managed to, that, there appears to be no actual fucking way, at all, at "winning" this shit, which, I was unfortunate enough to be dragged into. Which means that I've no real remaining choice, but to, simply kill myself. I actually did, have a fucking note written out and etc etc etc. It is just that, at-least in this way, if I do this soon; I will die as myself. Which is good enough.
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It has occurred to me now, coming as far as I have fucking managed to actually make it, that, there appears to be no actual fucking way, at "winning" this shit. If you would even fucking call the right to live your life, as you please, and whatever... I've never hurt or even mistreated anybody, in the even slightest way. What I did to deserve this is being me, I suppose. It is just that, "Jack" one of these assholes I met at a time, actually told to me, himself, that "I am evil." Anyway I know all of those involved in some way. But this what is happening to me is just impacting my fucking life too severely. Whatever. It doesn't matter the details of it, but this shit is constantly there, "she" I mean. My ex, Esharnie Fernando. Her name... I will say that there are six to eight people involved. And these fucks are seriously ... I do not know. But they are unbelievably inhumane. Beyond fucking ... Eugh.
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Also, there is here, some commented out lines, for anybody with a little curiosity for some additional information regarding this shit. And ... FYI ... As much as it may seem to not be so, I AM ENTIRELY SANE! That's how fucked up this shit is... Mhm.
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Any how, it has occurred to me now, that I've no real remaining choice, but to simply kill myself. I actually did have a fucking note written out and, etc. etc. etc. Some time ago now.
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It is just that, at-least in this way, if I do this soon; I will die as myself. Which is good enough.
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Heh.
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Good luck to the rest of you...
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Apologies for the incredibly slow progress on my website, although I've been struck by some complications in my life.
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And just about one fucking month ago I (stupidly) restored a snapshot taken of the root VPS file system and this reverted some very nice and important changes, mostly involved with the actual scientific supporting of the issues which one should be expecting from the document below, the vaccination_plan. Other changes which I'd lost were merely aesthetic ones, and actually a few more documents and hahas, with some more transportable design changes, but I am going to be obtaining another computer again soon, for now I've just began working on it again now, 01.03.2023. Just a little after five and from using my mobile telephon just very recently obtained another laptop, and am as a result capable of once again resuming work on this website...
One could say I was ran over by a derailed landslide which happened to be crossbred with a fucking shipwreck! But notwithstanding... Stay tuned, because when this baby hits 88mp/h ... You guys are gonna see some serious shit.
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I just wanted to say that I am very respectful towards ALL humans, and Life in general. Or, just to all of Nature. I'm aware that my words were quite, uhh, mean? Lol. In some of the texts which I've recently added to this index page. This is NOT like me, at all. It is completely unlike me to speak badly of any other being. At all. It is just the effect, I assume of my excessive ingestion of totally fucking SERIOUS QUANTITIES OF WHATEVER FUCKING DRUG YOU'VE HEARD OF, AND MANY WHICH YOU'VE NEVER EVEN KNOWN OF EXISTING! Seriously... Like- If you so wish, take a look at my Resume ... ROFL. Mhm. Good day, etc. JUST REMEMBER TO KEEP YOUR HEAD AND FEET OUTSIDE OF THE BOX FOR THE REMAINDER OF THE TRIP! HEE.