If anything happens to me at some time, at all anything at all. It is fault of Esharnie Ferando.
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        Well I met some folk on the bus today, and ... he seemed an idiot. He mentioned something 
        about legalising drugs, in small quantities. Are you also fucking restricted to only being able 
        be in in a specific quantity of substance of cucumbers, also? See, what I mean? My ex... 
        Is something, 
        what, I do not know. I have  no idea what is going on... Something weird started for me on 
        the 23rd or Janurary 2013. Which for whatever reason I do remember the specific date. As... 
        It led to ruining my life. I say that my exgirlfiend is the person who is behind doing whatever 
        happens... Because of some way that she has got certain capabilies which no person should have. 
        I know it is her due to too many fucking things which she has told to me. She mentioned soon 
        after we'd first met in a psychiatric instition, "that you set me free". As time passed, I 
        eventually leanrned what was meant by this, "hell", and who knows I assume also, "heaven", 
        apparently do exist. And my exgirlfiend was "jesus" also, which I cannot remember where I 
        came across this piece of information, in how, or off of who, or etc. She also mentioned at 
        some point, during the time that we were dating, that "in the summer". Now she just said this 
        randomly, for no actualy reason. So I had not idea why. But in the summer of that year on 
        November 11th, I am quite sure. Well- She can control people. She has before. And etc. Well it 
        is that I can only very select few segments of breif periods of memories from that time, but 
        all that I know was that she wrote something. Through me. And I of course have not the slightest 
        clue as to what, although it led to my imprisonment, for a only short while, a length of a few 
        weeks. And then a psychiatric faciltiy for another two. It led me to develop thought-broadcasting 
        disorder for five years from between - about mid-2013 to exactly, April 17th 2017. This 
        vanished entirely without trace. When I was under the impression that I'd met God. Well, it was her.
        She did nothing good in the slightest, led to some perhaps unique and different and whatever experiences, some of
        which were fun at the time, sure, some really fun, okay... I admit that. But if I was asked 
        on answering whether it was worth it, well. No. Not at all. Not what it is that I am experiencing 
        today... None of what her existing in my life. served any good use in what I am today. 
        Maybe, ... I mean how could I know with certainty? I can say that, however, with certainty enough to 
        be comfortable in my saying, that my quite very well established in terms of the depth and grasp 
        well this would be no different with or without her. Actually, I cannot say that, because, well... 
	she is the reason that I ever stepped foot inside the confines of a pschiatrict institution, due to-
	it was that some you see, to make a too long for me to write out in full detailing of but also 
	still providing sufficient detail, to tell the key concepts which are of any interest to the 
	discussion.
	I provide the following in dot points to expand on later.
	I took Xanax (alprazolam) for a period of about exactly the duration of three months, at .25mg to 75mg daily.
	I went through withdrawl which caused a weird.
	Associated thought-broadcasting to the existent yet rare 
	And also sound understanding of the discplines which I had and still do, find interesting, enough 
        so to purse studies into or research within. I mean I've undertaken mostly all of 
        my studies in my own private time, I mean this is what my life was until I stupidly decided to leave my 
        apartment in south-eastern Melbourne, in late October, 2021. It is that my formal education took place 
        at Monash university which is within the same locality as my apartment, named Notting Hill. Of course when 
        I say private study I refer to that which I'd undertaken in my own time. Out of pure interest and love, and 
        desire to further my knowledge in, with perhaps some end goal in, or just for the sake of being having 
        holding the capacity of involving myself in a greater number of fields of whatever, which require such a 
        knowledge, signal mechanics, electrical engineering, various aspects of information technology systems involved, 
        areas of study. I mean I enrolled into Monash university in the year of 2010, and lasted with any real knowledge 
        being properly conceptualised and understood, with sound enough grasp within my mind abstract capability of 
        thought to, almost as if visualise and infer the  interactions of particular to be capable of considering it as me actually to  to perform and not formal, as not as having been undertaken within an institution, as opposed to in my 
        own time, and on my own accord